Solidly Average

Just had my anual performance review at my job here, and the results are in!  I am a solidly average, mid-grade corporate employee.

 This, of course, comes as no surprise at all.  The only negatives in the talk were about how I could definitely defend my own ideas more, or interrupt others during a meeting to express my opinions.  I kind of smiled on the inside since I couldn't think of a way to express that the reason for this is that I really don't care. 

The things people argue about in these meetings have so little relevance to anything that I feel is important, that I have no opinions to offer.  If I really think things are on the wrong track, I always pipe up with a suggestion or two, but overall?  The inner-spinnings of the corporate machine don't offer any fuel for my inner fire.

 It's a great sign that everything is going in the right direction; why would I want to stay in a job where I'm just average?  I really do need to get out there to somewhere that I can work at with passion.  Something that's important to me and not just another pay check.

Of course, I understand that I should put my best foot forward in everything that I do, but that time has passed.  I started out as the hardest working employee anybody could wish for, and have been rewarded with the opportunity to climb the ladder a'plenty.  Now, though, I'm growing and finally understanding what's really important to me.  And climbing ladders isn't it.

In this sterile environment, driven by profits and marketshare; where highly intelligent people spend large portions of their lives in meetings for the sole purpose of perpetuating an ephemeral noun with no soul... I am average.  When I get out there where I can sink my teeth into something with substance, that is where I will shine

At the least, it'll be a more interesting journey. ;-)