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May 2007 
Step 2 - Resigning From Job: Complete
ROb
Well, it's been done! The "Send/Receive" button has been smacked with authority, and my resignation e-mail is patiently poised for pouncing in my manager's inbox.
There's scary stuff in the air at the moment, and I'm not sure what i'm sniffin'...I've been plannin' on putting in my months-notice resignation this week, but then last friday my manager went away to Europe for three weeks! I couldn't catch'im the day that he left (which was the same day I heard about it), so I was at a loss as to what to do; I usually think of quitting as a face-to-face transaction.
So this morning this Other guy on my team comes in and tells us that he just called the manager dude, and he's quitting, too! Ack! We're a team with three developers, and now two of us are leaving. The remaining developer is a friend of mine from highschool and the one that got me this job, so now I worry; is his job suddenly in danger? Since our manager's already got planning to do at the loss of one worker, I thought it was only fair to let him know what he's really got ahead of him.
I'm also currently burrying myself in information, putting together my own degree at the college I'm plannin' on headin' to. This isn't an easy thing! I have a catalog that I've gone through and highlighted a rediculous breadth of courses in, and I'm drowning in data trying to follow through all the different pre-reqs and compliments and trying to decide between classes that I "need" and ones that are "just interesting". They're all interesting! And the flaw of broad-minded-thought means that I see how they all relate to all of the others and how could I feel like I gave my self a full education if I'm missing any of them?
In addition, we Still ain't finished unpacking from our move, I've barely been home, the cats aren't eating, Ginger and I have no time for each other, less time for our selves, the sinks are clogged, I feel like I've neglected Zaadz lately, and AHHHHHHH!!!!! What's going on?
Change is going on! Deep down, I know this is all within acceptable limits. This is the friction of the choppy shores of vicissitude, the energy costs and explosions of transmutation, the...thingamajig of a...what'chamacallit...umm... eh.
So yeah, things are movin' along! I still have that whiff of oddness in the back of mind, though. Am I missing something? Are there signs in the weather patterns of life around me that I'm ignoring? How did a blog about quitting my job turn into a quivering blob of confusion?
Hmm. I wasn't going to actually post this but, well, apparently there's just not the same therapeutic value of a meaningless rant without hitting the submit button. Interesting attachment with that one, eh?
Anyway, things are movin', things are crazy, and I'm goin' crazy right along with'em.
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'When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better, too.'
-Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist
It's so funny how when we embrace change, change embraces us back! It's like the universe is playing a game of charades with us, mirroring our actions back - sometimes with perfect pitch, sometimes slowly, distortedly, making us wonder if we're crazy to notice these weird synchronicites, or if our little changes are REALLY infectiously affecting other, seemingly unrelated things.
Breathe. Relax. Follow your bliss. Have faith. Enjoy. It will all be over all to soon…
Change is always scary. Yet exciting. I also handle things like that by going a little crazy. But I do agree with Tsuya, I do think a person should “Breathe.” and “Relax” about it.
It is good to vent sometimes though, and I feel your confusion. But luckily things do have a way of working out. Doing what you feel is right for you and necessary can be the most difficult and scary thing. But it is always the better choice. Good luck, man! (and again: “Breathe.” It really does help.)
I'm right there with ya, dude. Our change isn't the same, but…well…change is change. When I'm stressed, I go stand outdoors and gaze at the stars. The world is asleep; humanity rests.
And I listen to the quiet, and ponder. And breathe. Remember that line from “Everything I know I learned in kindergarden”?
When crossing the street….hold hands and stick together. We'll get through this, our hearts aligned in transition.
much love,
dian
Breathing is the only thing that keeps me going, lol. Glad you posted this Rob. Thanks for sharing.
Yes, breathe, relax, but also organize yourself so that you don't have that feeling like you're forgetting something. Once you've taken stock of everything you are doing (maybe not in writing like I (A.R.) would do, but…) your mind can relax… and breathe! Baby steps. Do a little bit of this and a little bit of that each day, along with togetherness with Ginger and soon it will all be done, and you'll have the best degree program line up! See your life the way you want it, and that's what you'll have. (oh, it sounds so EASY!)
Glad you are starting back to school. An education is important. But reading over your blog rob, I think I would of handled all the changes alittle slower. Clogged drains, not enough time for the ones we love, a new home, quiting ones job. Seems like so many changes so quickly. While I am sure you will handle them, dont let yourself get stressed by it all. Think of a storm, it is a change. One that is a gradual change is one that feeds the earth, one that is to fast leads to destruction.
Rob,
I can't believe I missed this blog. (Feel terrible about that!)
These are the days you'll be glad you went through to get where it is you're going. If it was easy EVERYONE would be doing what you're doing, so remember it's all a part of the big picture. I do feel for you however, but hang in there. And when I'm blogging about how I'm in the same state, you can reassure me, ok? It won't be long… :-)
Take good care of yourself buddy.